Dec. 2009

I still am looking at my life thinking what happened. I know that there are all sorts of lessons we are to receive when one becomes ill. I am not getting it yet. I have all this chronic pain. It is a real bitch to hurt all the time. That has nothing to do with the leukemia/lymphoma. Then this disease-it is a watch and wait program. One day it is just gonna all blow up and I will find myself very sick and taking harsh drugs that will make me sicker. So far my lesson is anger. Please, tell me some things that I should look at.

Debbie's Blog

Debbie's Blog

It has been a long time since I have written on my blog. Many things have happened. This summer I took a 21 day course of levoquin an antibiotic. I had an arthritic reaction. Now I have 24.7 knee and shoulder pain. It has been hard to accept. In July I was given a 4 week course of what is called immunotherapy. I received 3 drugs once a week for 4 weeks I went in every thursaday X 4 weeks and first was given benadryl, a big bag of steroids and a drug called rituxan. I guess it was to boost my immune system. I don't think it worked. I started having shrtness of breath at that point. The woest was about 3 weeks ago I really was week and had shortness of breathe. I saw 2 emergency rooms and one hospitalization. I was even told I might have a tumor in my chest. Now they think I had a virus because I had spike a temp of 103. What a mess and boy I have really felt miserable and still do. I am hoping to start felling 100%. I want to get back to hiking, walking my dog and getting to some yoga classes. I can tell my body is still a little ways away of what I want. That is my goal and will be working on it. I think I have let my diet suffer a bit from not feeling well since I am the only one that cooks here.

My sweet Erin moved to Ventura this summer. She wanted to be closer to her Mom. She broke up with her boyfriend too whom she had been with for about 3 years. She said that he was not always that nice to her and that is not the way she wants to spend her life I am proud of her for having the guts to do this. So this lazy blooger is gonna call it quits for now. Chow people and Happy Holidays. Dec. 16. 2009